And I won't go home without you

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen

She left before I had the chance to say

Oh

The words that would mend the things that were broken

But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep

Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?

Why does every moment have to be so hard?"

Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight

Just give me one more chance to make it right

I may not make it through the night

I won't go home without you

The taste of her breath, I'll never get over

The noises that she made kept me awake

Oh

The weight of things that remain unspoken

Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep

Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?

Why does every moment have to be so hard?"

Hard to believe that

[ Won't Go Home Without You lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

It's not over tonight

Just give me one more chance to make it right

I may not make it through the night

I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight

Just give me one more chance to make it right

I may not make it through the night

I won't go home without you

Of all the things I felt but never really shown

Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go

I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight

Just give me one more chance to make it right

I may not make it through the night

I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight

Just give me one more chance to make it right

I may not make it through the night

I won't go home without you

And I won't go home without you

And I won't go home without you

And I won't go home without you

This Weekend

Recently i was running on Bipolar mood! very sure i get it from my hectic bloody schedules of meeting and analyzing tones of report from the series of Banking Stress Test from all over Europe!

Not that i complaining but i have this bad habits for running out of mood and my mouth will go BITCHY on the spot!

Last Tuesday i had an argument with my hubby! over the simplest thing! (i won't elaborate here,probably my Director is reading my blog! feel so stupid) and

with angry moody monster i am, left him and little one in Berlin and off i go for 2 days meeting in Brussels!

What makes me turn to be more angry later on is, my hubby have this kind of habits that he, will not pick up my call, reply my email instantly, Yahoo Messenger me, etc2...

What the fuck!

I left Brussels and went to London for my step sister! Not going anywhere in London, home stay, babysit my step sister children! until...

Hubby send me an email, quite recently! (typical man) asking "Are you coming back today? We (mom,bro,little one and me) are waiting you for summer!"

AND

He add"Don't worry i am not angry with you

Please come back home later on!"

i missed everybody!

HUBBY FORGIVE ME

Nous t'aimons bien

Just came back from my workplace, have a peep over little Sophie in her room, sleeping so good. and she wrote a wish card for me saying"Nous t'aimons bien" we love you very much!

It makes me cry and when i saw my hubby sleeping at the couch, it makes my heart falls apart. I knew that he always horny and want me in his arms, I'm his living pillow, he told me.

I am a bit cheer up tonights, all my efforts and our team efforts has shown some positives result. Euro has reached and closed at E1.3000 yesterday. Our first ever benchmark have somehow shows and better than IMF predictions.

My fight on Austerity VS Stimulus is indeed effectives. I don't have to be on Charlie Ross-Bloomberg TV to proofs it! stupid...

But my straggling to keep my small family happy is at stakes. I can't very well juggling both situations, at least Steve has been very supportive and given me encouragement that I should continue with my doing.

He will make sure everything will be fine.

I can't very well falls asleep after sex, which I normally does! I stare my lovely hubby face and I saw a slight disappointment, (yeahh!!! pleasure face indeed after he get what he wants the most) change to worries and many other.

Steve, please forgive me if I has and always make your life difficult, I have no other attention but for us to live comfortably at least.

Stress Test

Talking about European Stress Test on selected Banking institutions, Gosh i have got myself a BIG STRESS too.

Meeting and series of meeting, i do have several long meeting in a day. But the perks are, as the interviewer we was bribed with five star accommodation, Food and Beverage is above excellent - ehem2 lucky i am Vegan by choice and i have a personal butler when i was in Spain and Portugal.

Awwwww! I like my jobs. I don't mind to keep it more than a year or so. My ECB (Euro Central Bank) Director has given me some good clue yesterday on a piece of paper, during two days finances minister meeting in Brussels.

He ask me "Bist du glucklich? Sie bleiben für längere Zeit?" translated somewhere near like "Are you happy with your current works? Do stay for longer period?".

I am currently attending a night class to improve my Dutch and Finnish. I could communicate well but my writing and reading are below average.

We might be thinking about migrating to European Union too. and judging from our experience last weekend in Oslo, Norway. Northern European seems the best place for all of us.

and thee welcome our kind too. Not to mention the sea side and the people is nice!

Personal Finance - Can Money Buy You Happiness?

Are you happy?

When I ask that question, what aspects of your life immediately leap to mind? Do you think of your significant other, smile, and nod yes, you're happy? Do you measure it by how often you've laughed or felt at peace?

Or did you do a quick accounting of your financial well-being as a way to gauge your contentedness?

Can money buy happiness?

We say it can't because, well, that's what we are supposed to say. But turns out a recent Gallup World survey found people do think money can buy happiness.

"Pulling in the big bucks makes people more likely to say they are happy with their lives overall -- whether they are young or old, male or female, or living in cities or remote villages, the survey of more than 136,000 people in 132 countries found."

Okay, actually money can only buy one component of happiness, according to the poll.

"'Yes, money makes you happy -- we see the effect of income on life satisfaction is very strong and virtually ubiquitous and universal around the world,' said Ed Diener, a professor emeritus of psychology at the University of Illinois who led the study. 'But it makes you more satisfied than it makes you feel good. Positive feelings are less affected by money and more affected by the things people are doing day to day.'"

People may initially define their happiness by income because they are comparing themselves to the ubiquitous Joneses--you know, the people who always seem to be living better than you with their nice house, luxury car and trendy clothes. But here's something to consider: Many of the people you envy for their outward appearance of wealth are probably just as jammed up with debt as you are - or a paycheck away from being broke.

The findings from the poll were published in the July issue of the Journal of Personality and Social Psychology. The survey involved detailed questioning in 2005 and 2006 of 136,839 residents age 15 and older.

The study also shows how the United States compared with several countries on the happiness scale.

So have you measured your happiness by how much money you have, and if so, how's that working for you?

"Can Money Buy You Happiness?"

South Africa 2010- FIFA World Cup

Sport is good, and competing in any sports under your country badge is yet superior and double the enormity if you have won a medal and brought a pride for your country.

But sport has it very own meaning these years after millennium, if you want to judge the sport during ancient Greek civilization; which is to halt the war from far arising and to unite every people of the world, very much indigenous ideas.

My Favorite team

What i have foreseen from now on, sports have a great interest among opportunists. It has by all meant created a wealth, not only for the players, but to the great venture of business deal.

Where great opportunity now comes with great deal of profits!

I have read somewhere in FIFA bulletin clearly mention that World Cup 2010 in South Africa has already dwarfing World Cup 2006 in Germany.

And what is this meaning?

It clearly understated that the increase of funds from Private Corporation with an exclusive agreement from rights to broadcast to the official complimentary items and everything from foods and beverages.

FIFA have Six Major Sponsors altogether and Three Innovative Sponsors for World Cup 2010. This summer’s World Cup in South Africa is estimated to make a record $3.34 billion.

My question is! What is the Return of Investment to South Africa states, apart from local tourism? From record breaking profits for World Cup 2010, how much will these benefits the people of South Africa?

Point to ponder!

Official Receipts

It is official to me now that all ECB (European Central Bank) Staff are not allowed in any form of writing any reviews or comments or produce whatsoever publication in any media stream without the approval from ECB's council.

So, no more writing on economics of the world! i'll be devastated! but hopefully you guys are keen enough to get the ECB publication to read my words of art.

I am still a bloody academician deep in my heart, either i publish or i sagging myself for mere entertainment or attention on street.

I find myself walking in the street of Berlin or maybe Frankfurt again. I have already missed New York City. and i missed my darling husband so much!

La Fête du Canada!

formerly Dominion Day ( Le Jour de la Confédération), is Canada’s national day, the federal holiday commemorating the July 1, 1867, enactment of the British North America Act (today called the Constitution Act, 1867), which united two British colonies and a province of the British Empire into a single country called Canada.

The birth of a Canadian national identity was a protracted and lengthy process! Indeed the Canadian Constitution was enacted formerly by Elizabeth II as Queen of Canada brought the act into effect with a proclamation she signed in Ottawa on April 17, 1982. The date Canada became fully independent from The United Kingdom in all legal aspects.